Wednesday, April 25, 2012

DRIVE to LIVE

Thank you to all my friends and family, because I consider you all part of this huge family I have found. From the bottom of my heart I have not felt more loved than now with all of your support and continued prayers. Today, I received some news that I will admit brought my spirits down for part of the day. I am not in remission and will be undergoing more chemotherapy treatment from what I have heard the options are. I will have more details for all of you tomorrow once I speak to my Dr. I was distraught when I heard the news and nearly heartbroken, sometimes I am amazed that I still have tears left to shed sometimes, but I guess that is just a reminder that I am human and still ALIVE. I NEED to BELIEVE that there is a particular chemotherapy drug out there that will knock this monster out of me and bring me to remission so I can move to my transplant. I can only Pray that GOD will guide my Drs. or take me to the place where this is possible. In a couple of months I will be 30 and never in my wildest nightmares did I ever think I would be battling THE BIG C at this age. I never thought this would happen to me.

SO...I ask that all of you, dont take LIFE for granted, don't take the simple things in life for granted, and don't even take the bad things for granted, because the bottom line is it could always be worse. Today, at 29 years old, I sit here and look at my life and I have so much more left to do and that I WILL DO...but I appreciate every day and I have realized all the BLESSINGS I have in my life. I have the Best Parents and I mean the BEST, no offense to anyone's parents LOL...but mine are kick ass!!! Next is my Sister, she is my ROCK and part of my STRENGTH...She's a tough cookie but has a heart of gold and I am SOOOOO Lucky that GOD sent her to me...With her by my side I feel like anything is possible. Then there is the rest of my family, which are incredible as well. My true friends who have stuck by me through all of this journey..you know who you are...then are those who I have met along the way of this journey, whether they have been friends on facebook, my doctor, nurses, hospital staff, they truly make each day of this fight a little easier for me. SO thank you....and Thank you God for Blessing me with such amazing people in my life. I appreciate them all in their very own special way, they keep me going strong every day!!!!

I will continue to say I have CANCER but CANCER does not have me. As long as I can fight, I will continue to FIGHT like the WARRIOR I know I am!!! If others have fought and surpassed this then why the heck can't I. There is no ROOM for FAILURE here it is not an OPTION in my LIFE!!! I am a WINNER!!! and so help me GOD, but I WILL BEAT THIS!!!

I will keep you all updated.

God Bless!!!

"My DRIVE to LIVE is far GREATER and STRONGER than any CANCER!"- ♥ yours truly